yo... its been a pretty long day... lets just start with wat happen in the morning... woke up pretty late this morning, so din even managed to get a bathe before leaving the hse. classes were ok..but i just realise i may have to fail BFI's Ca next tuesday cause i dont understand a single word she's saying !!! haiz.. den after class bryan said we're supposeed to meet sabrina for lunch. i was kinda reluctant to eat with them, cause i'll feel so extra and that i'll be probably be not talking much when i'm with the both of them together... but i went anyway cause i din wan to eat lunch alone... but it ended up pretty much like the way i expected. i don now y this is so, but every time i'm with them i juz dun feel like talking, cause its like i feel so extra. Even when its outside as long as i'm the only person with the both of them, i'll juz feel that even if i said anything both of them will prob juz be ignored cause both are so engrossed with each other's conversation. Besides she's more talkative with Bryan, so i prob shouldnt even be ard when they meet each other... anyway.. as luch passed by, i juz din feel like talking to her, so when yu ke and gang asked me to go play ball, i juz agreed, prob cause i din wan to be the "light bulb" anymore. Den i saw yi hao sitting on my sit as well, and when he saw me he was going to leave the table, so i asked him to sit down and tat i came back juz to tak my bag. Haiz.. i dunno if i messed up big time by quarrelling with him, but i frankly dun care. Anyway the three of them will prob be better off without me.. haha.. dunno y i can still laugh even though i'm so bothered by it.. the three of them are all good people, people who's not like me.. i'm a bad guy, a playful flirt, a insensitve jerk, haha.. and most of all i'm a playful childish ass, but those three are people who are more sensible teens den me, and like sabbie once siad, if i become bad, she'll prob juz leave me alone, so i tink its ok if i distance myself from them.. juz wished aaron and ming hui and cheng jin and lester was here.. i miss those days when it was jus the five of us.... haiz.. stayed in sch at the clubhse till 8 like tat. Juz din wan to go home so early even though i have a project to rush and a lot of tests to study.. saw ben train basketball.. reminded me of last time in sec sch, when me and josh and the rest of us would slack everyday and play ball during every recess... i missed those days when i'm with them... at least i'll feel happy... haiz..on the way home messaged tabs again... din know y i even did tat.. its like i already knew she wuldnt reply, but yet i still did it... haiz.. this was prob hw nicholas felt when she refused to reply him tat time... if only it din start.. haiz... haiz gonna start on my project liao.. shld prob juz be a guai kia at hme and bad boi in sch.. no one would notice anyway..no one would notice the insignificant boi ken.....
